Let's be real folks. Its time for my quarterly free therapy session. Let's do this.
Do you ever feel like you are not good enough?
Not kind enough, not happy enough, not fit enough, not positive enough?
Ug...that's been me recently. I have been stuck in this rut of feeling so inadequate at everything in my life. My faith, my family, my job, my home, my ministry, my friends...the list is never ending!
Thing is, I am fully aware of all these feelings in my life, and I am fully aware that I am not doing a good job handling and coming to terms with them. I find myself ragging on myself for not being more content with my life, for not being positive and optimistic, for not being able to handle it all, for not being the best version of myself.
CONTENT. This word is my arch nemesis in life. I struggle with it so dang much! I wish I could be easy going and relaxed, and sit down and enjoy the company at my house instead of being made uneasy by all the dishes in the sink and my messy kitchen. I am 100% a Martha who has always wanted to be a Mary...Mary always seemed so peaceful and content with her life where as Martha was uneasy and a busy bee all the time. I don't know if I struggle with being content because I am a competitive person competing against myself, or because my insane Type-A slightly OCD personality is off the charts cray cray.
If you could see the browsing history from my computer recently you would laugh...
"How to be an easy going person"
"How to have an optimistic perspective on life"
"How to be content"
"How to be better at everything in your life"
"How to loose 5 pounds by being a part time vegetarian"
"How to kill time at work when you have no work"
"How to make a green smoothie that doesn't taste like dirt"
"How to throw a tea party for adults"
"How to build authentic community"
Breathe. Remember to breathe.
Stop trying to juggling all the balls at once while you ride a unicycle and whistle.
"Have courage and be kind"
Be grateful by counting your blessings. Be content by being grateful.
I recently heard this quote on the radio and it really resonated with me:
"I always thought people wanted me to be perfect so I could help them. If I reached out for help myself , I had reasoned, I would lose my perceived usefulness. But the truth is, all I have to offer anyone else is a life surrendered to Christ so that His beauty and grace shines through my brokenness. The greatest gift we can give each other is a willingness to share our imperfection and accept each other just the way we are. There is freedom in such a gift." - Shelia Walsh
Praying that I become more accepting of myself and others. Praying that I find goodness and kindness in all situations and people that surround me. Praying that I allow "His beauty and grace to shine through my brokenness".
Prayers that you find peace and contentment in your life, and with whatever you are struggling with.
Then...I go and make these tacos that I can find no fault with. YES! I got it right! Gold star for me!
Growing up we used the "Old El Paso" seasoning mix whenever we had tacos for dinner. After college I just started throwing in random Mexican spices combos instead, but the flavor was always lacking. I finally decided to look up an actual recipe for tacos and yum, so glad I did! I love having people over and entertaining, and tacos is a great small or large group meal - I make the meat and have everyone else bring the accouterments. Another way to cut down on the cost is to supplement the beef with black beans...at the end of the day you essentially have thick chili but a fatter wallet - you decide which one you prefer : )
Taco meat is also a great leftover to have on hand in the refrigerator. It makes a quick and healthy lunch or dinner when you throw it on top of lettuce. You can also make a huge batch of this and freeze it for later meals if you want.
1 TBS oil (your choice, I usually use olive or coconut oil)
1 large onion, diced
1 large jalapeno, diced small
Salt and Pepper to taste
2 clove garlic, minced
1 TBS chili powder
1 1/2 tsp ground cumin
1 1/2 pounds ground beef, or you could use turkey or chicken
1 can black beans, drained and rinsed (optional)
1/2 of a 14.5oz can diced tomatoes with juice
Heat oil in large skillet over medium high heat. Add onion and jalapeno, season with salt and pepper. Cook 4-5 minutes. Add garlic, chili powder, cumin and cook 1 minute. Add meat, breaking it up and stirring it together, cook until no longer pink. Add tomatoes and beans and simmer until thickened 10-12 minutes. Add more Salt and Pepper if it needs it.
Serve over lettuce for a salad or fill warm tortillas and top with you favorite toppings.
Make these tacos for dinner.
Sit down with your family and enjoy them...the tacos and the family : )
Ignore the dishes in the sink for 30 more minutes and relax with your loved ones!
Eat your heart out,